better than I thought

 Have you ever just been in a funk? I mean, for more than a day. Weeks maybe. Lately I haven't been able to get out of my current funk. I've recently had a good amount of changes take place in my life, I've lost a few friends in the process and I've been dealing with being unemployed in an already {for lack of a better word} shitty economy, a son who's attitude is worse than it ever was in the terrible twos, missing my sisters like crazy-- there's never been a time when the three of us have been apart so long and that kills me. So today, I woke up at noon because I have this horrific flu-virus and due to my current situation, I don't have heath insurance so between NyQuil and gingerale, I am self medicating. It's been one of those months that I swear, something has got to give. Luckily for me, I have my camera. Sometimes I swear I would be lost without it. "Canon" {who will someday have a better name, and yes, I am taking suggestions} gives me this creative outlet and this way to express myself in any mood. Last weekend I did maternity pictures for my friend Krissy. She was expecting her baby any day (little man was born today!) and I wanted to make sure we captured her maternal glow! Success! I was so excited about this shoot for two reasons, I would get to see Krissy AND because her wonderful husband, Joel serves as a U.S Marine. Krissy told me at the shoot that Joel wouldn't be there for the babies scheduled C-section because he had to go to training and that he would only be with her and the baby for a few weeks before he was deployed for a year. My heart was just burning for them. These two are SO in love and my heart just broke for Joel and for Krissy that she wouldn't have her husband there for her and for the baby for a year. For the first year. Joel is one of those husbands that is so attentive to his wife. He would be looking at her when he was supposed to be looking at me. He didn't just look at her though, he lovingly gazed at her. There is not doubt that the situation is hard for them, but they have a mutual strength when they talk about it. All of this got me thinking about how I have been sad, pathetically sad about the fact that I haven't seen my sister in over a year. I've been sad about a few things but none of my things even compare. Joel and Krissy, you are both in my prayers every night. I'm thankful for Joel and for Krissy because they are both sacrificing this year to make sure that this country continues to be a safe place for their new son and for my son. I'm thankful that they are both so strong and that they have each other. I'm going to concentrate more on being thankful for what I have than being sad about what I don't have. Thanks for your service Joel. Here's a little sneak peak!